I sit here as the tears spill from my eyes,

thinking of the days when you were mine.

Just wanting it all back wishing you were mine again.

Baby im sorry,I really truely am.

Once again I made the mistake of letting you slip,

letting you slip ten-thousand miles from my grip.

Im sorry I lied,Im sorry I kept a secret.

I know it seems wrong,

but baby I had to make sure I was strong.

I didn't want to lose you,

but once the words came out,

I was choked and uncertain,

as I looked all about.

Now im sitting here wishing for you to be mine again,

I sit here as the tears spill from my eyes...

Just keep wishin you were mine again..

just keep wishin you were mine..

Derek, Tonight I've had more than enough time on my own to think about what I wanted, what I needed, and I put that time to good use. And in one night I figured out what I've spent my entire life trying to figure out. What am I here for? What is my sole purpose? And I got to thinking, theres 60 seconds in a min, 60 min in an hour, 24 hours in a day, 365 days in a year. That adds up to about 31536000. So for 14 years, 10 months, 13 days, and 18 hours its about 468492000 . Thats how many seconds passed that I didn't know you. This might not seem important, but I've learned to treasure each second I have you in my life. Every second that passes when we arn't talking feels like forever. Every second is a potential last, but the second I met you was a last and a first. It was the last second I spent as the hateful person I started to become, and the first to the person I wanted to become. For the first time I wanted to better myself, not for me, but so I could give you the happiness you deserve. If I had a nickel for each time I said the wrong things, I could buy you the world. I make it very clear I get upset when we don't talk, however I don't tell you that I'm not upset with you. It just hurts me so much when we don't talk. I wish I were one of those who can come right out and say what they feel. I've been hurt so much I feel I have to keep up my defenses, but you have made me so happy. Every second I have left, I want to spend making your life the best it can be. I love you so much, I don't always know the right things to say, but I know I want to spend forever showing you what I don't know how to say.